Apple Martin has been “very anxious about making mistakes” because of the scrutiny she’s faced throughout her life due to her famous parents.
Apple Martin has been “very anxious about making mistakes” because of the scrutiny she’s faced throughout her life.
The 20-year-old law student has grown up in the public eye thanks to her famous parents, Gwyneth Paltrow and Chris Martin, so admitted she was “discouraged” from following in their footsteps and tries to be low-key.
She told Interview magazine: “It’s interesting because I grew up with that uneven balance of getting out of the airport with my mom and being bombarded with cameras, and then just being a normal kid.
“I remember I read ‘Discipline and Punish’ [by Michel Foucault], which is a great book, but talking about the surveillance state—I feel like I’ve grown up with that, which is really scary and makes me very anxious about making mistakes.
“So I was really discouraged from doing anything in the public eye. Also, I was like, ‘I don’t think we need another celebrity child in the world.’
“I just try to do what feels right and block out anything regarding me in the news to the best of my ability. And I’m getting a lot better at being like, ‘F*** it’. I’m not going to be scared. I just want to do what seems fun and figure my life out.”
Apple opted to study law at Tennessee’s Vanderbilt University in part because she was too “insecure and nervous” to attempt to be an actress.
She explained: “So, the reason why I was originally like, ‘Maybe I’ll be a lawyer’, was because I loved acting, but I was insecure and nervous, so I was like, ‘Oh my god, if I’m a lawyer, I can perform on the stage in a trial setting.’
“It’s insane that I thought that. Also I cannot lie, I was like, ‘I’ll just be Elle Woods’.
“It’s a lot harder than it looks. I don’t know how she managed to go to law school every day as fabulous as she did.
“But I love history. I love true crime. I love investigating. I also think it’s fun to look at the history of law and see how you can implement it in a modern context.
“If I were to be a lawyer, I would just want to help people. That’s probably the biggest thing.”
Apple tries not to read too much about herself online because even just one negative comment can be “very upsetting”.
After she reads any of the comments made about her on the internet, she said: “After the Chanel show, I did. Then I quickly realised why everybody has always said, ‘Don’t do it.’
“Because even if you see a million positive things, there can be one thing that absolutely wrecks you.
“So, I’ve stopped now and I avoid it like the plague, because I know myself and I know that if I see stuff that isn’t true and that’s really upsetting to me, I’m going to be like, ‘Oh my god, I should never go out in public again.’
“I’ve tried to be like, ‘People are going to say stuff, and that’s okay.’ And like everybody, there’s going to be stuff that isn’t true and stuff that is upsetting, and all I can do is just be the best that I can be and be with the people I love and not read random, crazy conspiracies.”
Apple Martin scared of ‘making mistakes’ in the public eye
